Tumor Eviction Notice

It’s almost surgery time.  Eli goes in early Tuesday morning to have the tumor removed from his right adrenal gland.  Eli has just one tumor and it is fairly small in size compared to what many other children with neuroblastoma have.  Our doctors are optimistic that this surgery will go well.  Even so…surgery is complicated and has its own set of risks.  Chris and I met with Eli’s surgeon, Dr. Lal, while Eli was in the hospital last week.  On our anniversary.  Awesome.

At that meeting we discussed with Dr. Lal the pros and cons of him performing this as a laparoscopic or an open surgery.  Eli’s tumor has a piece (which Dr. Lal is calling a tongue) that wraps under his vena cava (a large vein that carries blood back to the heart.)  The short version of a lengthy discussion went something like this: Dr. Lal was unsure about being able to successfully remove the “tongue” portion of the tumor laparoscopically due to the positioning and the risks associated with hitting the vena cava.  But with an open surgery, he felt that he should be able to have a better chance of removing the entire tumor, tongue and all, and should something go wrong they would be right at the source of the problem immediately and able to treat it.  Of course, an open surgery means a longer recovery, more pain, and a different set of risks than laparoscopic.  In the end, we felt that being able to resect the entire tumor was the way to go.  So, Eli will be opened up for this surgery.  By the way, let me just say that it is REALLY hard making decisions for someone else.  And REALLY hard to think of what our baby is about to go through.

So, on Tuesday, please put on your Super Squad shirts (or maybe just wear his favorite color – red) and pray for Eli and his surgical team.  Pray that Eli will be the brave little superhero he always is.  He gets very nervous on procedure/scan days (rightly so) and at this point we haven’t told him about the surgery.  We will do that the day prior.  Pray that God will guide Dr. Lal’s hands and also the rest of the surgical team so that the entire tumor will be removed without complication.  Pray that Eli’s pain will be managed and he will recover well.

We don’t exactly know what recovery means at this point.  That is one of the harder parts of this.  With an open surgery, we were told that Eli could be inpatient anywhere from 5-10 days.  Everything depends on how he responds and recovers.  I’ve made all the plans I need to make for the other four kids through Friday.  Once we have a better idea of how long we will be inpatient I’ll be reaching out for more help.  Can’t plan too far in advance anymore.  That’s just how we roll now.

In other news, Eli is sporting a new accessory.  Exactly one week ago, Chris and I made the decision to have the nurses place an ng tube.  This is a feeding tube that goes up through his nose, down the back of his throat, and into his stomach. It is small and he is still able to eat, drink, talk, laugh, play, and do everything as usual with it in. During the day, he eats and drinks normally.  At night, we run Pediasure through his tube.  We worked with the dietician to figure out how many calories he needs to supplement what he is already eating.  (And what he’s already eating is not much.)  We have a pump, IV pole, and portable backpack type bag from our home medical supplier.  Every night at 8:00, Eli gets hooked up.  He is so efficient at moving around wherever he wants to go and just brings his bag with the pump along with him.  It’s pretty remarkable how well he has adapted.

Today I can write about the ng tube without crying.  Last week, I was in tears and couldn’t talk about it.  Our medical team had brought up getting an ng tube a few times because Eli is so tiny and they wanted to find a way to help him put on some weight.  At our meeting with Dr. Lal, we found out that Eli will not be able to eat for about 3 days after his surgery.  (I’m foggy on the details as to why.  Too much to absorb, but when I get that figured out I can clarify.)  It was then that Chris brought up the idea of the ng tube before surgery to get him some extra calories.  We both know that Eli really has no weight to spare.  If he is unable to eat for 3 days and was already not eating well, he could be in trouble.  Last week when we were thinking about this, he had mouth sores that extended all the way into his belly from chemo.  He didn’t want to eat.  At all.

Logically, we both understood that making this hard decision would benefit Eli in the long run.  Emotionally, I went into this kicking and screaming.

I was fearful that this tube would change his positive attitude and worried about him becoming depressed.  He hates his dressing changes for his CVL line.  Hates them!  How would he handle having a tube put up his nose and down into his stomach.  Oh, and these need to be changed monthly?!?!  How would he even hold still for that?  How would he be at home?  Would it get in the way?  Would it remind him every minute of the day of cancer?  I felt like I failed him.  We already tried an appetite stimulant after his first round of chemo.  He hated taking it and was already taking so many meds (all liquid) and it was literally a 20-45 minute struggle to get him to finish his medications.  And then we would have to repeat that about 5 more times throughout the day with different meds.  It was exhausting.  So we stopped the appetite stimulant for a while, basically to lessen the amount of meds he was taking.

A couple weeks ago a wonderful nurse practitioner listened to our frustrations with med taking and suggested to us that we get his meds in a pill form and crush them.  This was AMAZING!  After some exhausting struggles to find the right avenue for him to take the crushed meds, we finally found a winner.  A spoonful of peanut butter!  With that success, we restarted the appetite stimulant.  But what I didn’t understand was that it usually takes about 2 weeks for the appetite stimulant to kick in.  I thought it was an immediate effect.  Looking back at the timeline, he really didn’t get a chance to eat enough to make a difference on his own.  When he was up to eating, we ran into roadblocks like chemo, or mouth sores, or a few days of NPO during stem cell collection.

Every time I thought of all these things, I just felt like I failed him.  If only I had continued to struggle through all the meds with him and make him take the appetite stimulant from the beginning.  If only we learned about crushing it sooner, we could have re-started the stimulant sooner and gave him a better chance of wanting to eat more.  I never wanted this ng tube for him and I was falling apart knowing it had come down to him getting one.

Let’s just say that when it came time to put the ng tube in, all my worst fears were confirmed.  I held him tight, restraining his arms as two nurses put the line in.  He was screaming, gagging, and crying.  I was fighting back the tears and wanted to run out of the room screaming myself.  It is SO hard to hold your baby and make him do hard things when you don’t want him to have to do any of it.  He was so upset.  He refused to talk for about a day and a half.  He would grunt and scream and growl, sometimes stomp his feet, while pointing angrily at things to communicate to us.  He started hitting me in the hospital.  He was very angry about the tube.  The staff said this is common, but hang on because kids tend to come around.  I was having a hard time believing it.






Here is Eli, finally asleep.  He was exhausted from the emotional trauma after his tube was inserted.

We came home on Monday afternoon last week and Eli continued to be quite angry.  The 3 big kids were away at Camp Kesem, and it turned out to be a good week for them to be gone so the rest of us could adjust to this new tube.  It was a hard week. It was emotionally exhausting with all of Eli’s yelling, anger, frustration, noncompliant behavior, and also the guilt I was feeling.  And truthfully, I was mad he had it too.

He started coming around mid-week.  He started talking again and eating/drinking without complaint.  One thing he still doesn’t like is the feeling he gets down the back of his throat when we have to flush his ng tube line with plain water twice a day.  But just yesterday, the little stinker told us that now he likes his ng tube.  Seriously?  After a week of hell?  The staff was right.  He came around.  And so did I.  We are watching the scale climb a little each day and I know in my heart that we did the right thing for him.  For that, I’m glad.  Sometimes it’s just really hard doing the logical thing.

In typical Eli fashion – he likes to have as much control as he can.  He prefers to flush his ng tube with water himself and likes to press the start button on the pump once it’s all ready to go.










Eli had been asking no less than 3 times a day for about the last week when we can go back to the dinosaur museum to see Sue (the T-Rex).  We decided to make an impromptu get-away on Friday afternoon, because we just have no idea when we’d be able to get him back there since big things with long hospital stays are coming up in the next few months.  He was so excited.  We had a great time.

Looking ahead through the fall:
Surgery July 26 (in-patient 5-10 days?)
Chemo 5 (likely the 1st or 2nd week of August.  There is a possibility that we go straight from surgical recovery floor back to the HOT unit for chemo.  Hopefully, this is not the case and we get a few days at home.)
2 rounds of High Dose Chemo/Stem Cell Transplant (no dates set yet, but likely a month or so after chemo 5.  High dose chemo will wipe out his immune system and he will receive his stem cells back.  In-patient stay about 3-6 weeks each time.)

Neuroblastoma is the longest and most intense treatment plan.  The kids are hit with so many different kinds of chemo (and hard ones) because it’s such a difficult cancer to treat.  It’s just such a challenging road for these little peanuts and families.

Thanks for all your continued love, prayers, and support.  We are so thankful to have all of your in our corner!  Much love!

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34 Responses to Tumor Eviction Notice

  1. Stacey Newcomer says:

    I love the name of this post. This tumor does have to vacate the premises! My heart breaks for all the hard decisions you have to make. You guys are doing a great job–your love for Eli is clearly evident. I will pray for strength to carry on and a peace that surpasses all understanding for you and Chris.
    Heavenly Father, I lift Eli up to you this morning as he is in surgery. Be present in that room Lord, giving the surgery team wisdom and steady hands as they remove the tumor. Please help them remove 100% of the tumor without jeopardizing anything in the same area. I pray that Eli’s recovery is smooth and his hospital stay is shorter than predicted. Help his body heal well, Lord. Give Eli superhero courage and strength when he wakes up from the surgery. Surround him with the best caregivers who meet any challenge with creativity and compassion. I lift Jamie and Chris up to you as well. They are a few months into this battle and have overcome much–I pray that you continue to walk with them every step of the way, carrying them when necessary. Give them strength to face each new day and it’s challenges with a firm resolve. Let them feel the prayers of all the Warriors in their life. Fill them with a peace that surpasses all understanding. Do not allow Satan to enter these circumstances and mess with their emotions or their confidence. Pour out your love, Lord, so there is no room for fear or doubt. Heavenly Father, you love us more than we know and are our wonderful Counselor, mighty God, faithful Provider, merciful Redeemer and the Creator of all things. I lift all of these prayers up in the name of your Son, Jesus. Amen.

  2. Cindy Lewin says:

    Praying!!! Sending you all hugs and love.

  3. Jessica Jakubowski says:

    Sending Hugs, Love and Prayers for Eli and the whole family!❤?❤?❤?❤?
    My daughter Ava was on Chris’ bball rec team 2 yrs ago.

  4. Colleen Czajka says:

    Holding Eli and family close in thought and prayer. All my love.

    Auntie Colleen

  5. Beth says:

    Prayers for your family. May God bless York family.

  6. Rachel says:

    Prayers sent your way. We know first hand what you and your family are going through. Try to stay strong and lean on the lord for your strength.

  7. Betsy says:

    I can’t even imagine how hard this is for all of you. It breaks my heart that this is what you live with each day. I send so much love and energy your way. All of you are in my heart and prayers! God bless!!!

  8. jen says:

    I have kiddo with autism and ADHD (a cake walk in comparison to what you’re facing with Eli) and we’ve been doing his ADHD meds with peanut butter for 10 months now. It used to take 2 of us to give him meds but he’s so used to the peanut butter now that he takes them without a problem twice a day.

    When he was little, we had some long hospitalizations because of RSV and during the first one, we had a nurse one day who didn’t want to be bothered with patient care so she taught me how to work the feeding pump for his NG tube. The next day, another nurse discovered what she had done and asked if I minded if one of her student nurses came to observe. By the end of the week, we had trained most of the student nurses on the peds ward in how to use the feeding pump!

    Best wishes for your kiddo! I can’t imagine how hard this has to be for your mama heart.

  9. Diane says:

    I will keep Eli and family in my prayers.

  10. Anonymous says:

    May God watch over Eli, the doctors and your family tomorrow. He will be a strong fighter.

  11. Anonymous says:

    Decisions we have to make as parents are hard, but the decisions you two have to make with your babe are unfathomable. Being strong when you are sick and tired of this cruel cancer must be so hard. God, please be with Eli and his loving family as they go through yet another battle. Lots of hugs to all of you. God speed. Lisa

  12. Anonymous says:

    We were faced with the NG tube question ourselves for a family member. I would not wish that decision on anyone for any reason. You are doing a great job. You guys ask the right questions and keep very well informed. You are the best advocate for your son. As said in a previous comment, God is advocating right along with you guiding you. Our family will continue praying for you. We will be thinking of you all on Tuesday.

  13. Eric Czyzewski says:

    Thank you for sharing. Continued prayers to Eli, mom and dad, and his siblings.

  14. Betsy says:

    I pray for you all many times each day. My heart breaks for what you have to go through. So thankful that Eli has “come around” to his tube. He is an amazing little boy. I continue to share Eli’s story and request prayers for him from my friends. He has a lot of people pulling for him! God bless, Jamie!

  15. My heart is heavy with sadness, yet also hope faith and love for your family…His Lord will hear our prayers

  16. Anonymous says:

    I keep Eli and your family in my prayers every night.

  17. Auntie Patti says:

    All my love and prayers. Auntie Patti.

  18. Auntie Karen says:

    I just put my t-shirt out for tomorrow so I don’t forget to wear it…please know I never forget to pray thought. Love you lots!

  19. Julie Taylor says:

    Empathetically taking this very difficult journey with all of you. I feel (as much as a person can) what you share so concisely with us. STILL hate that it has to happen, but hoping that you feel the love, strength and faith that WE share and send to you. One of the things that help the rest of us (who feel so helpless) would be to have you let us know what we can do to help you. Praying is a given, being able to physically do something to help, is empowering for us. Realizing that you are crazy busy with everything, once you have the time to put another calendar together, it would be beneficial to all of us. In the meantime, tons of love continues to come your way.♡♡♡

  20. Karen says:

    Wow!! That was a.lot to absorb just reading about it. The 2 of you are doing exactly the right things at the exactly correct time. Be kind to yourselves. God has guided you to this moment. Your love for each other and your children has guided your wise decisions. You are so blessed.

  21. Tammy Biebel says:

    We will continue to pray for Superhero Eli and strength for your entire family!
    The Biebel Family

  22. Melissa says:

    Sending prayers for a successful surgery!

  23. Bonnie Cayo says:

    Oh Jamie, my heart swells with emotion reading this post. You are one tough mom and a real hero. You haven’t failed; you are making hard decisions with love and the information you have at the time. Remember to look to Eli for confirmation. He’s happy again. Be kind to yourself and try to fill your own cup.

    I am praying for each one of you. You are an incredible inspiration to so many of us. Thank you for sharing your life and your love with us. I’ll be wearing my shirt tomorrow and hoping for the very best outcomes for Eli’s surgery.

    Many hugs, my friend –

    Love, Bonnie

  24. Jill S says:

    Sending Super healing tornado energy to Eli and all of you with much love and compassion.

  25. Anonymous says:

    I pray for Eli on a daily basis. I will continue to do so. Thanks for the update.

  26. Jennifer King says:

    Oh my goodness, I feel so bad for each and everyone of you. I love that you are so open with this blog! That is an incredible amount of treatment, poor little man. Poor mom and dad and siblings. I am thrown back 5 years ago with the ng tube story. It is so similar. I remember everything you wrote. Fighting it for so long, the anger and betrayal Matt had towards us. Then, he too came around. He actually liked it, because we weren’t constantly trying to get him to eat. He had lost so much weight and we went more than a month of fighting the inevitable. They set goals for weight and in the end I was a failure. We didn’t end up needing it for too long as he gained a lot of weight, but you have quite a different journey ahead. We are praying and supporting you in any way we can! Please reach out if you need anything! We have an appt on August 26th, maybe Matt can visit and play depending on where you are in treatment. Lots of love. Jenni

  27. Marge schweitzer says:

    Wow it has been a roller coaster but you are all ” hanging in here”. God is walking this journey with you and will not let you down . Sure will be praying for you on Tuesday. God bless you all!!! Marge

  28. Debbie says:

    Thanks for the update Jamie. What an emotional roller coaster for all 🙁 prayers continued! ((((((Hugs))))))

  29. Liz says:

    All of you are in our thoughts and prayers. Your strength and love through this is totally admirable. We will be thinking and praying for all of you in the next days and weeks.

  30. Uncle Buckwheat says:

    My heart goes out to all of you. I am so proud of Eli and you. Your courage is amazing! Keeping you in continued prayer. Praying for wisdom and skill for Dr Lal. Praying for courage, strength, perseverance, faith, trusting and confidence for Eli and you guys. Praying for healing and miracles! I’ll have my Super Squad shirt on! I love you!

  31. Robin Hicks says:

    Lots of prayers for all of you!

  32. Paula says:

    Prayers for you all….we will wear red ir oyr Eli shirts for you Tuesday.

  33. Rosa says:

    Hey J! We will wear our shirts all day long on Tuesday. We are so sad not to make it home this summer. Too many things but please know you, Eli, Chris, Ella, Abby, Owen and Alex are all in our thoughts every single day. We love you!

  34. Kathie Martin says:

    Thanks for the update, Jamie. I shall proudly sport my Super Eli shirt on Tuesday… and for sure will be praying extra prayers for all that you’ve mentioned in this post. Those will be added to the ones I pray daily for you, Chris and your whole family. Lots of love, Kathie Martin

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